August 2, 2011
The Catharsis of Writing

     There were many times over these past few weeks when I realized I hadn’t written anything in quite some time. I suppose being too wrapped up in my own personal affairs and “busy” lifestyle had me give up on writing for a while. Yet, each period in which I have ceased this activity has been filled with mostly bleak days without that wonderful satisfaction one gets after completing a paragraph, or finishing a lengthy diatribe. The rhythm of sentences, commas, semicolons, and all other elements of grammar/punctuation—not to discount the personal favorite em dash—had become a pleasant memory, but were no longer part of the daily routine. For the first time in my life, I began to understand what it felt like to come home from work too tired to write about the miserable day. I had forgotten how cathartic this medium truly is; writing seems to be as human as eating, breathing, sleeping, and all other biological functions. I’m not sure if this is true for all people, but I’ve found that writing allows be to get a better perspective on just about everything. And yes, this is just about the most pretentious essay ever written on this tumblr. It’s a smug satisfaction I suppose.

            Even thought I have probably damaged my credibility with the flowery and highly idealistic prose above, I still believe that writing—in the simplest sense—helps us get over the fact that life often sucks. Words provide a direct channel for us to communicate our emotions. The written word allows this process to be even more intimate and direct. At the moment, I am in the midst of many things, some troubling, and some unbelievably wonderful. The challenge seems to be balancing these two sets of things out; thinking about what sucks when you should be having fun does not fare well. So, with this short message, I return to this tumblr once more for an ongoing experiment: A quest to see whether or not writing can actually improve one’s daily life. Natalie Goldberg seems to think so…

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June 7, 2010
The Title Says it all


There are times in life when I feel like a title, an official moniker of some sort, is more lust after than the actual salary increase or responsibilities that come with it. I guess I started to draw this conclusion after I became the ” Managing Editor” of my school newspaper, which I had mixed feelings about. That is, I had mixed feelings about walking around calling myself that title, not about the position itself. There is something fundamentally off about me that does not allow me to derive any sort of pleasure(sometimes quite deserved) from official positions of this sort. I know many an earnest young student, the Hillary Clinton types I call them, who have no qualms about slapping the title right in your face. Sometimes I feel like they would be fine with a giant Mike Tyson-esque facial tattoo saying so. But why should I sit high and mighty drinking out of fine glassware criticizing them, that’s a job for the aristocrats. 

—Steven P. 

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May 23, 2010
A Search For Hipsters Or, Teenage Conformity in Our Time

I went to the mall with the anticipation of learning something about the youth of America. The youth in question were people in my age group who seemed to be all hopped up on the latest fashion trends, fads, gossip, and all of the general filth that now pollutes the television set. Nonetheless, I ventured off to the Garden State Plaza on a journalistic mission to accurately report and analyze all of what I saw. A task like this has a sort of romantic, Gonzo Journalism-esque feel, but I tried best to not imitate any particular style developed by masters who have come before me. My tools included a simple spiral-bound pocket notebook, a digital sound recording device (placed in my pants pocket), and a few dollars to spend at Starbucks. This last part is especially important because many a young hipster spends their time at Starbucks attempting to mingle with the rest of their population.

            Accompanying me on this adventure was a very good friend of mine who shared a common interest in studying these so called “hipsters”. I supposes it is at this point in the article that I ought to fully explain what exactly a hipster is. Urban Dictionary, the modern-day bastion for slang, defines the term as “…a subculture of men and women, typically in their 20’s and 30’s, that value independent thinking, counter-culture, progressive politics, an appreciation of art and indie-rock, creativity, intelligence, and witty banter.” While this description is apt, a more fitting definition of what a hipster is would be to simply say that hipsters are essentially staunch individualists committed to expressing themselves in unconventional ways. They are also the progressively liberal bunch that happily listens to the programs of NPR, shops regularly at stores like American Apparel and Urban Outfitters, and also have a distinct liking for thrift store clothing.

            Because of the hipster’s strong association with ragged, hobo-esque clothing, I thought that the logical place to start making observations would be at American Apparel, purveyors of fine vertically integrated clothing. Naturally, I would make my way to Urban Outfitters, and then to Starbucks, but this store was first on the list. The store itself is a sort of circus, where you find some of the most unusual people; the sort who graduated film school with a big fat B.F.A, but never made much use of it. Or the type that hold any creative degree of that sort, but still end up having their mother do their laundry and pick up their prescriptions. Such people deserve an article about just these aspects of their lives, but that is not the focus of this piece.            

            I arrived at American Apparel with a few goals, but my real mission was to take some notes on the hipsters who shop at the  “vertically integrated” store. It’s not your typical sort of store, the design, right down to the item tag, is minimalistic and sparse; although, they do sell some rather flashy, shimmering clothing. Alas, I barely got to witness the true hipster in his native habitat because on this particular night, a Friday, the store was rather vacant. A stereo system, discreetly located somewhere on the ceiling, pumped “muzak” through the store, while my friend and I shared our fair share of laughs, seeing a pair of provocative underwear that proudly proclaimed “ Gay”. Another thing that I immediately picked up on was this trend toward making everything, no matter the level of flamboyancy, unquestionably unisex. That is, many items in the store are what some might consider overtly feminine, despite the fact that the price tag, along with the sales clerk, says otherwise. Nonetheless, I decided to take this reporting one step further; I nervously grabbed one of American Apparel’s tri-blend t-shirts off of one of the racks, and paired it with a cardigan that I had my eye on ever since I walked in. The dressing room reminded me of one of those mirror houses at the circus, and I cautiously put on the clothing that was dangling from the coat hanger in my hand. Slowly, I opened the dressing room door, not knowing what to think, when my friend reacted with a giggle, clearly communicating how silly I looked. It seems that the hipster is truly inimitable.

            The adventure carried on as we entered yet another hipster Mecca, Urban Outfitters. A man, who I later found out was an employee, was stacking clothes on a shelf, giving us strange looks as I dictated notes into my portable sound recorder. It was at this point in the adventure when my trusty pen had run out of ink, making the sound recorder the primary method of taking notes. Fairly loud music played throughout the store as we tried on a number of hats, for which many hipsters seemed to enjoy, and became utterly amused by a variety of trendy sunglasses. Our general conclusion was that Urban Outfitters seemed to be even more of a hipster locale, despite American Apparel’s superior fashion models, who almost always sport a creepy mustache.

            We eventually reached the mall Starbucks, which turned to be one of the most depressing Starbucks that I had ever come across. It was primarily defined by of few slabs of glass, acting as walls, and a few of those comfy, as well as the not so comfy, Starbucks chairs. Upon our initial arrival, the place was completely empty, except for one middle-aged man who may or may have not been a pedophile. I ordered my usual overpriced triple-tall latte, and decided to sit down at one of the tables until some hipsters arrived. It was one of those situations where I knew that they would come, but I just was not sure when. So, I armed my sound recording device, told my friend to be on the lookout, and prepared to take some verbal notes. Naturally, I thought I should ask my friend to describe what she was seeing and she responded to my query with “I see checkered Vans, a blue star tattoo on his wrist, a pink animal band, and an American Apparel mustache—that is a hipster.” Said hipster was sitting directly in back of us, studying some reading material that I could not identify, and I was paranoid that he would confront us after hearing us talk about him. Luckily, such a confrontation did not occur, and we managed to get out without any dislocated vertebrae.

            Looking back at what I saw at the Garden State Plaza, I can certainly conclude that hipsters are very much apart of this rejection of teenage conformity. Teens always seem to find out a way to be unconventional, unusual, and outright obnoxious. Hipsters have influenced the teenage community into further exploiting and engaging in some of those rebellious ideals. There are, of course, major names and brands that cater to the hipster community, but it is still a small minority as compared to the ubiquity of conformist stores. So, in that sense, a well-minded reader may conclude that hipsters have had a generally positive impact on today’s youth, with their intrinsic belief that life is all about expressing ones individuality. Such an ideal is certainly better than the things disseminated by conformist stores, which seems to be all about perfect body image and expensive clothes. Whatever way one chooses to look at hipsters, as filthy vagabonds, or staunch individualists, there is certainly no denying their lasting impact on today’s culture, and their profound affect on today’s youth.

—Steven P. Rodriguez

            

May 12, 2010
My Apologies—Update on things

I think at some point, every person who runs a blog, or a pseudo-blog, like the one we have here, will write a post explaining why they have stopped posting. I’ve always thought of it as being  a lame practice, but now here I am writing one. 

The main reason I’ve stopped posting is because I have been swamped with work in recent weeks, and I’ve tried my very best, like that little engine that could, to make it up the mountain. All along, I knew that if I stopped I’d never make it up and begin to role backwards.

HOWEVER,

Tomorrow, I  will be attending the UNA-USA Model UN conference, in New York city, at the United Nations. Typically, these sorts of things are a bore, and it is not worth discussing, but I think it would be interesting to journal the experience. Granted, not all of it is that journal-able, but I will glue together bits and pieces that are interesting. Then again, I’m a boring man, so what I think is interesting is probably less compelling than that junk you put on your toast every morning :)

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May 4, 2010
"It is only in his work that an artist can find reality and satisfaction, for the actual world is less intense than the world of his invention and consequently his life, without recourse to violent disorder, does not seem very substantial. The right condition for him is that in which his work is not only convenient but unavoidable."

Tennessee Williams

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April 14, 2010
Wait…what? I thought we had something.

Hey, I’m Married to You on Facebook

I hate how I always have to sound like an old geezer whenever I try and express my thoughts, but I need to rant. This time it’s about the silly little game of fake marriage on Facebook ; it’s something that I have almost participated in, but mainly for VERY self-serving reasons. It seems clear that many a times the “fake marriage” game is a way of getting involved with someone you like, but not really. No awkwardness, no commitment, no silly little things of that sort, just the acting. Just the stupid things people do as a couples, but at the end of the day it’s a big joke, but often times one of the participants thinks there is a chance. A chance for something real, something that goes beyond the joke ; of course, the problem is that the other person, always(and I mean ALWAYS) 1) knows that this person wants to go beyond the joke and 2) that they can control the other person by leading them on. The seductive power of women has probably driven men to do more crazy, stupid, and immoral things  more than anything else on this green earth. 

So, my proposal( no pun intended) is to stop this madness and quit the pretending. I don’t think it is all that great when people get hurt because they have this notion that they have potential with someone. I mean, we crucify ourselves for these people and then they say ” Oh, well, that was just a silly joke” . I love jokes, you love jokes, the old lady with the cats down the street loves jokes, but sometimes I need somberness. I need to know that I did not waste my time. 

* I’m slapping a big “NOT THAT I’M BITTER’ sticker onto that rant. Quite truthfully, that was not something that personally happened to me, but others around me. Yeah, no joke. 

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April 11, 2010
Every time I see a cigarette butt I see some person who is suffering from addiction—I know that they will die from lung cancer—it’s a wake up call. Sort of like when you drive past a cemetery, you are once again reminded that you’re gonna die.

Every time I see a cigarette butt I see some person who is suffering from addiction—I know that they will die from lung cancer—it’s a wake up call. Sort of like when you drive past a cemetery, you are once again reminded that you’re gonna die.

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April 10, 2010
Social Groups: Everyone’s a scrub

In the 60’s, Bob Dylan pissed a lot of people off because he refused to be labeled a “Protest Singer” and wanted to break away from the traditional folk scene. The same sort of thing happens in social situations in life. 

Let me explain:

There are a lot of times when I wonder what causes a certain group of people to always do things together. We’d all like to think it is just because they all love each other, but that never seems to be the case. Many a times, there is fragmentation within the group, so the very purpose of a group becomes defeated. It would make much more sense to just socialize with the people in the group that one actually likes rather than the entire group. But no one seems to have enough courage to break apart. This is one of the reasons life is so hard. 

We all seem to try and avoid groups. Very rarely does someone raise their hand and say ” Oh, can I be in your group?” The ones who do such a thing are usually what many call “posers” You don’t want to be one of these people.

So, how does one avoid all of this? Is there any way of escaping it? Well, I like to believe that you can, but you’ll have to endure some difficulties in the short term, but it will probably all pay off in the end.  

It’s all one big game, and none of it really matters. Everyone’s a scrub on the inside. 

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